ninni
September 9, 2025 at 8:20:37 PM
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ninni.neocities.org
Hello again, I hope everything is going well for you! I read your new diary entry and it's crazy how much I understand you. I don't know if it's some kind of coping mechanism, but as you say, it's SO satisfying to let yourself go completely in your fantasies, to get completely involved, especially using music as a means to amplify everything even more.
For me, it's impossible to just “appreciate” something, like a book, for example. It has to really grab me internally, get me so emotionally and personally attached so that i feel it so real(and don't even get me started on listening to the same song or album for hours on end).
It heartens me to know that I'm not the only one who feels things so intensely 🥺
Replied on: September 9, 2025 at 9:19:04 PM
Ninni 🥺
Most things are well and things that aren't, are out of my control, so I'm good I would say. I hope you are too !
Thank you for reading it. I found it so nice that we understand each other like that ! Can you believe ? Such a big world and somehow, with the internet we can find each other ? It amazes me ! It heartens me too. I talked about your answer to my message on your guestbook to my boyfriend the other day, I thought it was so nice haha
But yes, yes and yes. That feeling is incredible ! It's like, I don't know, it's such a passion, a creative big bang in your head and everywhere. It's gut-wrenching, but ah, it makes you feel alive. It changed my life, actually, many times. I don't know how to explain to most people that I kept sobbing all day because I missed someone from a book and that the only thing that made me feel better was a song that made me cry more. Or that yes, I can't finish anything, but I will write a 20k (and counting) story about a character from a 2016 movie. Because for some strange reason a hand that does not exist just gripped my insides and now I can't do anything but think about it ? I'm sure you know what I mean. What are you latest grand loves ? I'm very curious.
I don't listen to a lot of music lately, I had forgotten how potent it can be and the joy it is to have a song on repeat with the exact right feeling !
Have you read Jane Eyre ? I feel like Charlotte Brontë would relate, and you would probably like it (if you don't mind Rochester, I personally really don't but some people have better tastes in men haha).
ANYWAY, I'm very bad with answering quickly but if you ever want to email, I think it would be nice : [email protected] (and I guess anyone who read this is welcome too)